i was just thinking..




why do people have
such a negative outlook
about this life we're living




i guess im always guilty of that all the time
i always wonder why life sucks so damn badly
but never really stop to think
about the good things in my life





actually
i cant think of any right now
but i think later
i'll go make a list of things
i can be thankful for




so i wont feel that life sucks so much



i gotta get out of this damn rut




its hard to talk to someone
who's feeling so damn sad all the time
i know
it sucks to burden someone else
with your own problems




cos then the person will feel obliged
to say something nice
when in fact,
there's nothing nice to say




do you know what i mean?





cos i always find myself doing that
telling people how upset i am
but why cant i just keep it to myself?




it would make the conversation
so much easier





and we could
go on
and on
with this game of pretense





i guess..
life doesnt suck that much
its just how you want to make it out to be




i say
life has its ups and downs




and i just happen to be at the downside





but im sure
loving hands
will lift me back up
to where i belong




if only i believe..




having something to hope in
really gives life so much more meaning




rather than moping around
waiting for the end of one day
and the start of the next




its like a never ending cycle
that has to be broken





sorry im just going on and on
and i dont really know what im going on about
although i do have some sorta clue
but forget it




i think i've said enough





hahaha.okay im such a stupid ass seriously.
val was asking me to click on the flickr thing.and i didnt know we had to click ON it -_-
how stupid




valencia! - THANKYOUNESS! says:
look at his pics man. get ready a bucket to puke.
and you're still the most beautiful thing i've seen* says:
haha okay wait ah
and you're still the most beautiful thing i've seen* says:
WHERE?
valencia! - THANKYOUNESS! says:
see the flickr thing?
and you're still the most beautiful thing i've seen* says:
click on it is it?
valencia! - THANKYOUNESS! says:
duh
and you're still the most beautiful thing i've seen* says:
really?
valencia! - THANKYOUNESS! says:
DUH
and you're still the most beautiful thing i've seen* says:
but i cant!
valencia! - THANKYOUNESS! says:
click
valencia! - THANKYOUNESS! says:
and wait for a pop-up
and you're still the most beautiful thing i've seen* says:
OH!
and you're still the most beautiful thing i've seen* says:
click ON it!
and you're still the most beautiful thing i've seen* says:
hahaha!
valencia! - THANKYOUNESS! says:
STU............




sheeshness





girl, you're one BIGO mess



so i withdraw
behind the walls
i built with bricks
made up of agony and anguish




the dreams of the previous night
reverberating in my mind



dont believe in love folks
love will tears up apart
-





finding my way back to sanity again



i realised..
im probably never
gonna get over this









so how








guess i gotta get on with my life
live with this feeling i'll never forget




embrace
every thought
and emotion



let it feed on me




tear me apart
you left me
with this scar, sized EXTRA LARGE
woohoo




but thats fine




i know i'll get used to it
as i already am






i'll be fine







but the night came down and swept us away